A Year ago

This morning I spent some time reading through my last journal. I came across an entry on April 20, 2008 that read, ".....we are about to enter a really tough time in our life and marraige and I know we'll look back in a year and think about how crazy it has been and how we are stronger because of it". Well, that was about one year ago. Actually one year from that date Drummer Boy and I will be together in Hawaii!! As I think back on the last year, it has definitely been a crazy, tough time. Probably the toughest year of my life, and at the same time, the year of the most blessing.

• Going through my depression and anxiety
• Falling more in love with Drummer Boy and he more in love with me because of it
• Realizing the meaning of true friendship
• Trusting in God to provide and take care of us on a daily basis
• Taking a HUGE step of faith by selling our house and moving to Texas without a job, house, or any prospects
• Having Drummer Boy's parents open their home to us with a willing and happy heart
• Being able to spend the summer with cousins
• Our first birthday parties with both families and cousins present
• God's provision (finally) of a job for Drummer Boy and his reluctance of how much he would enjoy it or if it was really the right job for him, and his realization that it actually is a really great job for him right now
• God's provision and divine hand again in the house that we were able to buy and that we LOVE
• The holidays with our family that were completely stress-free, as holidays should be
• My amazement of how much I enjoy being at home with my girls and not working
• The great friends that we have already made in our neighborhood and in this city, and the old friends that we have reconnected with.

Yes, it was really hard. There were times that I pleaded with God, bargained with him, was angry and confused, wanted to check-out of life honestly (during the depression). But God is so good. His mercies are new every morning. And his blessings are never deserved, but yet they never cease.