Last Sunday, our pastor spoke on Acts chapter 3. In the story, Peter and John go up to the temple to pray and they are stopped by a crippled man asking for money. Peter engages the man and then tells him to get up and walk, in the name of Jesus. The man is instantly healed and walks into the temple and praises God. The religious people who are also worshipping in the temple are surprised to see the man walk, and look to Peter and John wondering how they could heal the man.
This is where the story touched me... Elaborating on the point of view of the religious people, our pastor said, "We know who you are, Peter. You are just a fisherman. How could you do this?" Then Peter goes on to explain that it was not he who healed the man, but the power of Jesus Christ in him.
As I listened to Pastor Chad speak, I heard him say, "We know who you are Peter", and I thought about my friends and co-workers in Houston and in Nashville. Do they know who I am?
Do they even know? Most of them do not.
Ever since I started working as a Neonatal Nurse Practitioner in Nashville, I have felt like I was a fake. The nurses and doctors that I worked with always gave me great compliments. They trusted me and had great confidence in me. They acknowledged my leadership and approached me with challenges. They believed in me
way more than I believed in myself. And I felt like I was fooling all of them. I felt very insecure and stupid inside, but they thought I was smart and a confident leader.
Did they know who I was?
Since moving to Houston, I have tried to be really real with people. I don't hold anything back. I invite people into my life, just as it is, thinking they can either take it or leave it! A couple of years ago, I started a bible study with other moms in my neighborhood, and it has continued to meet and grow each semester. I have such great friends! I am always telling them about whatever God is teaching me, and I am always looking for creative ways to encourage our children. Sometimes my friends will say things to me like, "You have such a heart for women and children" or "I think you have the spiritual gift of teaching" or "you are an inspiration to me." And I wonder who they are talking about.
Me? Do they even know me?
Do they know who I am?
And here is the truth that I came to realize Sunday at church: Yes,
they DO know me! Because of 2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come." (ESV) They know who I am in Christ, and
that IS who I am now. They don't know the old me, the girl who is afraid to speak in front of people, the girl who would never pray out loud, the girl who feels stupid and insecure, the girl who tries to be what people want her to be and keeps her truest self locked up inside. That girl has passed away. That's not who I am anymore. I am a new creation, and God continues to change me every day.
So when I wonder who my friends are talking about, or why my co-workers have such confidence in me, I can be certain that they are talking about and have confidence in
me, with the power of Jesus Christ in me.
This is who I am. I AM: A New Creation.